PlanetNiles

Yesterday I had my EEG and it was interesting, somewhat amusing and quite sticky.

The sticky bit comes from the gel they use to attach the electrodes to my head.

Although I was told it was completely passive I’m sure I could feel a current pass through different parts of my head at different stages. For most of the 45 or so minutes I was being examined my eyes were closed.  The rapid breathing section was odd, I sounded like an out of breath cat for most of it and the strobe was disturbing, especially when it actually seemed to be triggering an ‘Outage. We went back over that bit and yes it felt like my head was hollowing out, like a bit of film stuck in a projector and melting.  Thankfully the nurse didn’t let it develop and so I only had a small amount of brambleage afterwards.

To be honest I think it was the rapid ticking sound of the strobe rather than the light itself.

So now we wait until I see the neurologist next month. Lets hope it’s one thing or another. I can’t believe I’m hoping to have brain damage or something, but dealing with epilepsy should be easier than working through the long tangle of psychological stuff that would cause these sort symptoms by themselves.

I guess this is what you get for having a top quality imagination. I just wish it was good for something.

Some would say its long overdue, but I have dates for my scans.

My CT scan is the morning of this coming Tuesday.

My EEG is in late November.

The sooner the better is all I can say.  I had a string of Outs today, each being triggered by the vibrations of the bus I was on as it waited at numerous bus stops. The last one was over an hour ago and I’m still feeling a little out of it.

I have an amusing brain disease.

It started, well I don’t really know when it started. I noticed it first back in February; others had noticed something amiss years back.

Back in February, under a considerable amount of stress and pain I nearly blacked out. The world faded away, retreating from me like a tide and I was only dimly aware of the things around me. And then it snapped back. I attributed it to the pain and thought nothing more of it.

Then it began to happen again and again.

In early in August I had five in one day.  so  I phoned the doctor and made an appointment to see a neurologist. The day after seeing my doctor my mind came apart at the seams.

The moments, hours and weeks that have followed have been unpleaseant, to say the least.  To protect my children from coming to harm in my rages I have left the family home and I’m now, while technically homeless, staying with my brother in law.

My fadeouts were soon joined by blackouts, very real hallucinations and both short term and long term memory loss.  I have become self destructive, paranoid and perpetually confused.  I related this to my doctor and his colleagues and had a rapid referral to see a psychiatrist who diagnosed me as having suffered a “stress induced Psychiatric Crisis”.

What we used to call a Breakdown.

I’ve since seen a neurologist and I’m waiting on a bunch of scans to take place.

Meanwhile I’m in discussion with a friend from the Cosmic Engineers regarding developing a prosthetic memory device for me using sousveillance and augmented reality technology.

More information to follow once I have it.